assalamualaikum, hye. so, talking about the tittle aku da mula rasa perubahan yang gila mendadak dalam jiwa aku. yes, i used to walk alone. but in the end, a smile just simply erase all the tears and i walk with someone by my side. huh, that's a long time ago.

back then, the life seem so easy for me to take but now i'm taking more time to get used to a new kind a life without anyone by my side. i used to walk alone but now, i'm alone again. you know what? i'm trying to get use of it, again!

semalam, january 12 aku da berjaya merela kan hati aku men-delete-kan accounts friendster aku yang sudah 4 tahun dalam dunia maya. yea, nak buat macam mana. semua nya demi membukti kan kebenaran yang belum jelas di mata sesiapa, huh. even myspace pun mungkin di-delete juga! sebab gambar aku yang ada dalam album myspace dia sudah pun di-erase-kan. makna nya? dunia da berubah begitu juga aku, HAHAHAH.

anyway, it's not a bad feeling really. i'm just frustrated that i'm not in the good-girl-side anymore, life just move on. there's no more fullstop plus my self couldn't be able to move. it's pathetic.

seem like it's my old body, welcome home kiddo! the old body that will remains like a dead person. no more tears, no more jokes, no more fun stuff plus there no more relationships gain even a friend also not remain until i'm dead! for such thing, i'm really damn trying to get used to everything around me.

soon enough i will be all that you hate, soon enough i will wake up from my damn dream of yours. i didn't need anyone but mark my words, i will get all that i want! kapish? huh makna nya, faham? aku pernah jatuh dan aku pernah bangun sendiri, aku tak kan mengalah walau apa pun yang terjadi kecuali kalau sudah sampai ajal aku.

HAHAHAHA, aku bukan malaikat yang mampu berada sekeliling kamu yang mampu meneliti gerak geri kamu. aku redha dengan ketentuan ilahi. jahat di balas jahat dan baik di balas baik, siapa yang tak pernah buat jahat memang rugi sebab korang akan dapat rasa macam mana orang yang selalu sakiti korang. rasa puas bila memijak hati orang!

finally, bersendirian bukan nya lemah tapi bersendirian ituh untuk membina balik semangat diri sebab kamu yang banyak tuh yang lemah.

p/s maaf, aku memang macam nie bila da marah! good girls gone bad

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