name; nurul afiffah zaini, fiefi
age; 18 years old
dob; 07101992 07:35
status; i'm heart-less
life; still stand by my own

say hello to the girl that i am, you will have to see through my perspective and i need to make mistakes just to learn who i am. i ain't need no body telling me what i have to do! i'm so fed up with people telling me to be someone else that better than me! i’m who i am and i can't be anyone else than to be me and actually i’m not interested to be somebody else, you've got nothing left to say. just keep your comments on yourself!! i'll be looking for labels and i ain't looking for bitch to fight

who are you to judge the life i live?! i’m not perfect and i don’t live to be but before you start pointing fingers make sure your hands are clean
i do whatever i want to but i know where my limits are. i’m not like what you've heard! i don’t give a hell of what do you think about me, don’t judge me if u don’t know me. liars i just hate you,got problems with that?!

i’m not a little girl anymore. for anyone who's ever betrayed me intentionally hurt me or two-timed me, i’m not going to deal on trying to make your life miserable and tell you that i’m going to fight you. no,better yet i’m going to sit here and tell you that karma is a bitch and u will get yours :)

please don’t judge me if u can’t be in my shoes, no body perfect dude! so please and just stop pretending like u are perfect! i’m sick of watching you pretending EN fake perfection

i'm looking for meaning. i'm always trying to expand my horizons, learn something new. in some way better in myself! if you've never spoke to me, you have no right to judge me even if you have for that matter i do not need your approval, not one bit. i love people who don't fit the norm. i'm definitely not what one would call ordinary not by any standards but then again i'm nothing special i live only for myself, i'm not trying to impress you don't let others decide your life for you i've learned that good friends are hard to find and easy to lose. i love my friends more than anything and will always try to be the best friend i can. be new friends are always great so talk to me (:

aku suka berkawan, malah aku sanggup lakukan apa saja asal kan kawan² seronok dan tersenyum lebar. mungkin senyum kambing juga, hha. aku makin kerap merantau sekarang. dari penang, aku pindah ke kelantan. sekarang taiping pula, ouh. aku boleh buat collection dan gellery kawan². aku peramah, senang nak bergaul. musuh mungkin boleh kira dengan jari je la kot. hha, aku sedar yang aku memang banyak mulut tapi di sebab kan keistimewaan tuh aku di gelar rawks. dah bagai kan kakak kepada semua kawan², kekadang la = =' my point of view is simple, orang respect aku dulu baru aku akan respect korang. mudah kan? pernah juga aku bergaduh dengan sahabat sendiri tapi itu adat pergaulan kan, tapi aku nie bukan jenis yang suka jaga tepi kain orang. aku cuma sayang kan kawan², aku lakukan apa yang terdaya. kawan tuh salah satu nadi untuk kita mula bergerak.

hidup ini banyak betul pengalaman, setiap orang ada langkah masing². hari² yang b’lalu akan terus kekal sebagai memori, dengan memori ini kita akan belajar menghargai apa yang telah kita miliki untuk kita terus dewasa. kita warnai langit dengan tangan kita sendiri. selagi jantung masih berdegup mimpi,persahabatan,
keberanian dan segala²nya akan terus diabadikan dalam jiwa selamanya

family comes first, aku sayang semua. walau pun aku tahu aku nie la anak yang paling jahat sekali, sadis betul la =) hha. keyakinan aku makin kuat, aku wanita tegar macam ibu. ibu tetap #1 dalam hati aku, aku tahu ibu banyak harungi keperitan hidup. alhamdulillah aku dah berjaya menyenang kan hati ibu, insyaallah aku akan jadi apa yang ibu nak. terima kasih ibu. abah, hidup nie cuma sekali. fie ada dengan abah walau apa pun yang akan berlaku lepas nie, it's all for our own good. aku la yang paling nakal tapi aku la yang paling jahat bila ada yang berani nak jatuh kan maruah keluarga aku!

pernah sekali hati berbicara sendiri, nak aku luah kan tapi tak terkata. air mata turut ikut mengalir, bila berdepan aku jadi kaku. so, surat jadi pengganti. agak old fashion tapi tuh je jalan keluar nya, aku titip kan pada biehah. alhamdulillah, cinta makin mekar.

love hurts but sometimes its a good hurt, full of sacrifice and tears in it. you may think it’s not worth it giving so much to a person. your wrong! it worth every breath. making mistakes doesn’t mean its the end of the world, by making mistakes you can learn from it. don’t give up, learning them cause its gonna make you realize that someone out there is teaching you to change to be a better person. i’ve done lots of mistake lately in life and i wish i could go back in time to change it but when i think back, it worth making them cause it changed me to a different person. i realize that people can change and it takes time to do it. but when you put an effort in it u can do anything in life. just don’t give up, i just wanna say i’m sorry, hope u could forgive my mistakes and start over again. you and me, shall we? i dreamt of this perfect person. he has the most charming eyes i ever looked into, he has the smile that makes my heart melt. he has the body and strength that makes me feel safe when he holds me in his arms. he has the face that makes me want to touch it softly. he has that sweetest voice that makes me weak when he whispers wonderful words into my ear. he has the sensitive personality that makes me wish that i could be in his life forever. then i woke up and that guy was laying right beside me but now he’s GONE. when i met you i didn’t have any idea that you would change my life forever but you did a little and a little at a time. i started falling in love with you on 210109. by the words you said and the smiles you made, just made me smile again. it was my day. first time i met you, i knew that i wanted you. i got you and yes we fight and fight but that never changed my love to you and we grew so much in this love. but though i've hurt you and i also hurt. i still love myself for i sacrificed myself and went beyond my pride to make it worth. though all gone through and wasted. GOD had a perfect reason and from someone who madly and frankly love you. ill miss you. you were and always have been sweet. but who ever loves you, better love you the way i did cause one day you'll realize that i always love you, but maybe now its time to move on. i love you and as long as your happy i’m happy too. i’ll miss you. what i didn’t expect had come so fast. i guess we were different because i thought it would last like we promise :( what made me happy was to see you smile. to say i’m not sad, well its all a big lie because when you see me happy, i am really wanting to cry loudly. but please never forget that i will always love you. the smiles we shared together when i met you, i knew that you were the one for me. since then there is no other place i’d rather be, being in your arms was so wonderful tears of missing you. i wish you could see. can you remember the first time we met? can you remember how your heart started beat when you with me? can you remember our very first kiss? can you remember the day that you left me? can you still feel your heart bleeding? can you remember all the laughs that we had? can you remember seeing me again after such a long time? dear, i remember. every second, every tears, every smile of you back then. you were always there for me and you were my best friend, my boyfriend, my sweet couple, you were my life. i swore to you that i would never ever love anyone again as much as i loved you. the fear of losing again. i will always love you. i will always remember the words you had told me and i will always think of you in every moment i live. i will always remember you for the good and pray that GOD will forgive the bad what you don’t understand. my life was dedicated to loving you. you were not my first love but i swore to you that you will be my last love and that's why i wanted to see you smile every time i breath. just love me, love the girl you used to love but promise you will never let me go. forget the girl that i am today, love me for who i am not for who you want me to be. love you untill I close my eyes, you the only one in my life

tapi sayang, mungkin cinta aku tak setaraf dengan cinta yang dia ingin kan. episod cinta nie belum berakhir cuma tergantung buat sementara waktu, mungkin masa nya untuk masing² mencari ilham lain. aku ada cara aku, aku bahagia dengan semua tuh. aku terima semua dengan hati yang rela, terima kasih kerana kau hadir dalam hati aku. cinta tuh hanya mainan duniawi, risiko untuk hati di pijak memang perlu di tanggung sendiri.

to “someone” i care most
it's about love we're talking about. life must go on no matter what, thanks for everything but i don’t think i’ll start to be bad again. you made me move on and thank you because you made me did it so easy. don’t regret when i’m change, sometimes life breaks your heart but things don't happen for no reason,right?!

some people will love you for you most will love you for what you can do for them and some won't like you at all. believe that life is worth living and life must go on. love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. love is a battle, love is a war, love is a growing up. if you love them but they didn’t just set them free, if they do loves you they will come back!

sometimes there up and down. when you were at the bottom, there were no one by your side but when you were on top of the worlds strangers can also be your friend but what’s the use having millions of friends when true friends aren’t one of them.

i live my life the hard way. i stand on my own, i talk for myself and i don’t depend on other peoples. life shows how much value it is, life is short value live with someone who can really deserve it GOD is great.

i had enough of stupid people saying shit shat on me behind my back. i’m sorry if i didn’t smile back to you, this is it no more chit chat for you bitches to know or laugh about so hope you “enjoy” . to peeps that tired of me or hate me, just be gone right now from my life! if you do think to scold me badly, do it till i cry and try your best peeps!! keep on talking about me i don’t give a shit because you’re making me famous :)

kata ibu, kecil² dulu aku tak terurus. kalau di sekolah rendah, aku lah murid yang paling susah nak dapat perhatian sebab aku pendiam & tak pernah langsung bersuara. aku tak suka berpakaian seperti gadis² lain, tapi bila sampai suatu ketika aku mula sedar yang aku dah kian dewasa. mula dari tingkatan 3 aku mula meningkat dewasa & mengerti erti perjalanan seorang gadis yang nak kan kehidupan yang penuh dramatik. hha, aku mula ada peminat & mula jadi seorang yang " hyper-active " perubahan mendadak dari aku membuat kan ramai yang senang hati, aku?? aku dah dewasa sekarang, ibu bangga dengan aku.

i'm rawking my own life starting by today :) so don’t even think of trying to ruin it dickhead

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